Wednesday, April 1, 2009

5th Element

I was once told, by a senior in college, that the people who are your friends and enemies in the first year would perform exactly the opposite roles by the time its graduation. Alas, like everything else that was broken by our batch, this rule also never applied.

The four of us were pretty thick all the way up to the end of first year. Disintegration had started just about 6 months later actually. It all was because of this one guy who was the prick basically. The one i ended up trusting and for the same reason had to apologize to at least 4 people. Anyway, like i said 4 of us right? No. There was a fifth element. Maybe not for all for but for me he was the link that was grounded and with a level head on his shoulders. I helped destroy that link and he lost faith in me and many more. It happened quite gradually and by the time it was 3rd year the kind of attitude that had developed within our relationship was strange. It wasn't animosity. It was disappointment.
Here's a good and bad story for ya.

There was this particular project and 4 people had to team up for the task. I grouped up with five, another idiot from the batch and the prick. Of course, no work was done. By the time we realized it was just about a week before submissions. So, five and I put ourselves to the task, worked over 3 nights and put together a fully bound and embossed project one hour before submission. Both of us managed quite a decent score. There happened to be a viva on the project itself a week after submission. Five and I never let the other 2 even see the project. They failed miserably. Anyhow, the good showed and i trusted five even more.

A couple of months later, five, a senior and myself decided to hire a T.V. and a V.C.R. for a 4 day long weekend that was coming up. We rented about a dozen movies, stocked up on booze, snacks and made the room a small little theatre. 2 and a half days later we went out and got another 4 movies and except for that we didn't move until Sunday evening. With the retail guy on our doorstep three of us had to return the gadgetry and pay for it. So the 2 of us made up this story about how we don't have money and all but will pay five back if he took care of it right now.

Photographic memory or not sometimes some images just stick so permanently in your head that if i had a print option i would use it and frame my thought! Five and I went to the ATM and i remember vividly the look on his face. Sheer disappointment because he knew we had not told him the whole time about the truth and had concocted this story. The nice guy never said a word but the image of that expression on his face is something i will never forget.

Since that Sunday evening, it was like a small little hot rock that was created and it kept growing bigger and hotter. Again not that there was any animosity brewing just that it wasn't the same you know. We still hung out from time to time, he still helped me out but this was the bad side of things.

A few years ago five and I happened to be in my hometown. We hung out a couple of times but there was this marked retort that i heard in him. It wasn't obvious but it was there. Things somehow got real ugly over the phone one day - for no apparent reason actually. That is what took me by surprise. It was a small disagreement and he went off on another completely different plane and said things that didn't really make sense. That conversation is what prompted me to write this because the more i went over what he said the more i understood the depth of the divide that had been created.

Misunderstandings are a part of life i guess and sometimes it takes time to come to term with them. I have and one day he will too. Till then this is an ode to the 5th Element who has saved many a day for me.

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